व्हेन इ थिंक ऑफ़ यू इ vomit

So for some reason when ever I type in a title for my blog while using a PC bong ( computer cafe) the title starts out in English and then tranforms to what I beleive is Hindi. In the past I have wasted a good 15-20 minutes trying to figure out how to fix it to no obvious avail because the computer itself speaks Korean। SO I have decided to just go with it. So I feel that this Blog is going to be rather personal ,rather than informational about my time here in this very very foreign land, because well thats what I feel like typing.Afterall the title of this Blog IS " Random Babblings of an American in Korea". So I feel as though I should babble a bit more.

It has recenly occured to me that I am one of those dark and troubled souls who only finds comfort in their own solitude and merely wishes to pass through life unoticed.

Sounds dreadfully emo doesnt it? Right about now you are thinking," Oh god, shut up and turn down the Dashboard Confessional." Although the thing is, is that I recognize all of these stereotypes and I agree with them, hell I might even be willing to admit that I meet some of them. This ,of course,is in the sense that I dont seem to care much how it seems or what it means to anyone other than myself. AM I self-righteous? Am I a ,dare I say, FAKER? Or do I really need to " be a lawyer, and get a boyfriend who's like a bastard, then have a couple of kids with mental problems, and wait ....for...menopause."?

I have come to the conclusion that if you arent self righteous then you are denying yourself the simple pleasure of how you truly wish to spend your time. How many times have you said to yourself that you didnt want to be in a particular place, but seem to appear there time and time again? How often do you vow to become more organized, more involved,and more aware? In the span of the infinite universe and all that is Holy, it seems to me that these simple gestures that one performs in daily life should be a "no brainer". It seems, though, that for most these chores in the ebb and flow of life are the most difficult to master,and I am left wondering..........am I really a self righteous fuck who thinks that they know it all? Or ,maybe I just know enough;enough to know that I know what I like.And I can truly say that I control my time, my space, my thoughts,and my desires.Do you know who controls yours?

A good friend once said to me..." you have to write your own book ,Chrisite, and let them write theirs."

This is probably the best advice that I have ever gotten.

Except of course the time that someone told me that it is NOT ok to drink and drive...that was good advice as well.